Ten Long Years In A Straight Line

I feel the need to write tonight but I can't. I could but I don't think I want to be that honest. In the past I would just write it all down and put it out there in a drunken haze. Then I would delete it all the next day and hope that the wrong person didn't see it. A couple years ago I did this in a message to a friend. I have felt bad about it ever since. A lot has happened in the duration but it still feels awkward.

I saw her tonight and she was as beautiful as ever. And I was as awkward as ever. I guess it's nice to know some things never change. Maybe someday we'll talk about it and I'll get the chance to say I'm sorry. If I was still drinking tonight would be a legendary mess.