One Year Later...

One year ago tonight I had my last drink of alcohol. In all honesty I had many drinks of alcohol that evening. So many that I had to call for a ride home. Thank God for that wisdom. That ride home started me on my path to today. I came clean on a lot of stuff that was going on in my life that night. Included my plans to commit suicide in the coming days. That's the part I haven't disclosed to everyone for the last year. A combination of depression and severe alcohol abuse started me down that path. It's not something I like to think much about these days. Up until that point I never knew what would drive someone to such a desperate measure. And to be honest, I'm still not one hundred percent sure how I got there. But I'm glad I didn't do anything stupid.

The past year of my life has been one continuous amazement after another. Everything before November 1, 2009 feels like a bad dream now. My life has been good, even great over the last twelve months. I've regained a new sense of hope and confidence that I thought was lost to time. I have gotten over my anxiety related to aging. I have started playing music again. I have a job that I care about and enjoy. And to top it all off, I have met the woman who not only softened my heart to mush but she is also the woman I plan to marry. This past year has been an amazing journey, I can't wait to see how the rest of my life plays out.